What Are You Running From?

If God has shown us bad times ahead, it’s enough for me that He knows about them.

 

Written by Abide on 29/05/2018

Series: Weekly Devotional

Tags: Contentment, Depression, Jesus

Answer me quickly, O LORD! My spirit fails! Hide not your face from me, lest I be like those who go down to the pit.

 

Psalm 143:7

By Julie Thomas

 

My season of hopelessness began about six years ago. Quivering, gasping for breath, I felt the tingle from the cold night air against the sweat on my brow and the chill of the stone pavement beneath my bare feet. The stirring from the raging thoughts in my mind was coming to a calm. I had to stop running as my mind steered back to the reality of where I stood.  

    

The reflection from the street lamp at the base of which I stopped was bright enough for me to see most of my surroundings — enough to realize that I was alone and that it was sometime during the night hours. Soon enough, a passing cold draft also brought me to the realization that I did all that running without the needed clothing to keep the cold out.

 

I stopped long enough to recover my breath and turned around to retrace my steps. Retracing footsteps seemed simpler than retracing the mind’s steps. Retracing footsteps meant I would just have to run those steps back, albeit barefoot. The mind’s steps — those would hurt more than the cold, coarse sidewalk grazing against the soles of my feet. Muffled memory pulled me home, where I remembered leaving two babies and a husband, following a mental and emotional breakdown on my part. I have yet to recall what triggered the outburst. All I am able to recall is the harrowing fear that led the way for my sprinting out the door and into the night.  

 

I ran as fast as I could and as hard as I could. What was I running from? I did not know. My mind was not able to cooperate with the backdrop of my home and my family. Everything at home had begun to increasingly overwhelm my mind. I know today that the running was a means of escape from whatever was causing anguish to my mind. When my family found me and took me home, the anguish trailed home with me.

 

How long have you been running? The anguish and exhaustion from the running, has it ceased? Perhaps it hasn't. This was true for me during my spar with depression.  Running failed to get rid of the pain. The only one exhausted was me. … It was intensely painful to live inside of myself — with the depression. Can you relate to this feeling? Depression can do that to you. But know that no pain is without the knowledge of God. He hears. He sees. Just like He heard the many cries of anguish of King David in the Psalms.

 

Pray this week:

Do you have pain within you that seems unbearable? Join me in this prayer inspired by Psalm 143:4, 7     

 

Lord, depression has agonized me for a long time. It seems like there is no end in sight. Still…I believe that I will see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living. I will walk in restoration. I will attain spiritual and moral resurrection that lifts me out from the depression. I release every hurt and every pain to you Lord! I embrace the fullness of Christ. I receive your healing Lord!    

 

Journal two words today: One that describes your emotions before spending time with God and another after you spend time with Him. Hold on to His hope as you breathe.

 

Are you battling depression? Do you have pain within you that seems unbearable?

Alan Zibluk Markethive Founding Member

Wall Street greets bitcoin with interest and worry Bitcoin may be the fraud of the century depending on whom you believe or it could be a gold mine for early adopters Adventurous investors have already bought into the virtual currency and Wall

Wall Street greets bitcoin with interest and worry

Bitcoin may be the fraud of the century, depending on whom you believe, or it could be a gold mine for early adopters.

 

Adventurous investors have already bought into the virtual currency and Wall Street is laying the groundwork for more wealth to flow into the cryptocurrency.

But nobody can say how big (or small) the bitcoin story will ultimately become.

Bitcoin still cannot be used to buy even a loaf of bread. It cannot be purchased from a company or sold directly on a major financial exchange and it is backed by no central bank. And it also dissimilar to metals like gold or silver, with universally accepted value.

Yet bitcoin is exchanged like money.

Near the end of 2017, bitcoin reached almost $20,000 in value amid a buying frenzy. It has since come down closer to earth and is now worth around $6,400.

Such volatility is too nerve-wracking for most mainstream investors but the radical price swings hold appeal for short-term traders.

rue believers in the currency, along with these short-term speculators, now have a variety of investment opportunities at various risk levels.

Debut on major exchange –

The most direct way to buy bitcoin is on an exchange that specializes in cryptocurrencies, although many of those platforms are at risk of hacking.

In late 2017, the Chicago Board Options Exchange became the first major exchange to offer a bitcoin product, a move that gave a legitimacy to the currency.

The Chicago exchange allowed trading on bitcoin futures — not on bitcoin itself — a financial instrument well known among investment professionals.

Another option is to pick an investment vehicle composed of bitcoin, such as the Bitcoin Investment Trust, which is managed by Grayscale Investments. But those interested in such ventures must transact in a private and bilateral basis and typically pay high fees.

Bitcoin believers are still awaiting the green light from regulators for exchange traded funds(ETF) that would track the movements of the virtual currency, a key step that could take the market more mainstream.

“The arrival of a potential bitcoin ETF remains top-of-mind for institutional investors seeking exposure to this emerging asset class,” said Michael Graham, an analyst specializing in Internet, blockchain and digital assets at Canaccord Genuity.

Each time, the SEC expressed concerns about fraud and manipulation, in part because it is still exchanged primarily on unregulated exchanges.

Broadening acceptance? –

Most of the biggest names in finance are at least studying ways to participate in bitcoin, although the steps so far have been incremental.

Jamie Dimon, chief executive of JPMorgan Chase, the biggest US bank by assets, famously called bitcoin a “fraud” in 2017 and has continued to speak skeptically of it.

Since May, Goldman Sachs has served as a clearinghouse for trading bitcoin futures for clients but has not offered bitcoin investments yet.

But Fidelity Investments, the giant money manager, this month unveiled a new venture, Fidelity Digital Assets, that will execute trades in digital currency for clients and permit them to store bitcoin or other digital assets with Fidelity.

And ICE, the parent company of the New York Stock Exchange, plans to launch its own bitcoin futures contract in November.

Bitcoin platforms continue to have a variety of problems, including lack of transparency, conflicts of interest and weak system safeguards, Christopher Giancarlo, chairman of the US Commodity Futures Trading Commission, said in a mid-October interview on Fox Business.

Yet many pension funds and other mainstream investors are likely to think twice before putting big funds into ventures that could soar — but could also sink.

The US Securities and Exchange Commission has rejected several proposed ETFs, including twice blocking ETFs proposed by the twin Internet entrepreneurs Cameron and Tyler Winklevoss.

“Like all things, it takes time to mature, and with the movement of more institutional investors into the space, I think we’ll see that maturation,” Giancarlo said.

 

by Juliette MICHEL

New York (AFP) |

Alan Zibluk Markethive Founding Member